The Power of Attitude

The Power of Attitude

Potschochter had a really devastating experience tha last couple of days.
The reality of not being able to perform the way he wanted to be able to, had hit him as hard as could be.
Today there is another chance to try to dig in and maybe growing to be able to take just one baby step.
That is all Potschochter asks for. Just being able to take one babystep at a time.
If this is not possible Potschochter has to find a way to get through this so-called KOP lessons,
without bursting into tears, of feeling overwhelmed.
Maybe Potschochter could try a different approach.
Since Potschochter would not be able to do the things his teacher asks,
maybe his mental sanity could be protected by switching into the position of an observer,
that watches the classes interactions and tries to focus on the projects that really have a meaning to Potschochter.
Potschochter has discovered that he probably could have a fixed mind set, that does not allow for growth.
But Potschochter cannot blame his age. That would be far too easy. Potschochter cannot quit this college.
Quitting is not an option to Potschochter. What would his family and friends say if he would quit?
Potschochter is not made for fights. Potschochter is prone to running away from obstacles and hiding his head into tha sand.
But hiding one's head into a sand can easily grow into being drawn into quicksands, where you cannot get out without the help from outside.
The sooner Potschochter learns to reach out, the sooner he could be able to take the next step.
But Potschochter is a sheer personification of fear. What does Potschochter really fear? Maybe he fears being rejected.
But rejection has been part of Potschochter's daily bread since years. How came that Potschochter has not handled being rejected, yet.
Potschochter has a very profound sense for people. He can easily sense emotions and attitudes from other people towards him.
In the very depth of his brains Potschochter knows that he is accepted by his creeator like Punchinello in this children's story.
Bit by bit this knowledge starts to find its way into Potschochter's heart.
Yes being kind of a granny compared to the rest of Potschochter's class-mates is not very easy.
A test is just a test. And grades do not really tell any thing about the knowledge of a person.
Either way!


What should Potschochter do instead?
Since Potschochter has enrolled into college he rediscovered the joy in dusting and making over his home.
Maybe this was the only reason that Potschochter had to enroll into college for being able to appreciate the activity of dusting.
Who knows? Life is a never ending path to learn about one self.

In Potschochter there is such a deep desire and passion for expressing himself by writing.
But what for? What should Potschochter do with this desire? How can Potschochter use his desire for writing for improving someone's life.
Potschochter remembers the occasions where he was able to help some class mates in a computer's project.
He really felt joy over being able to help someone in need.
Maybe Potschochter could concentrate on finding something where he is good at, and use this for helping others.

Since Potschochter does not really know where he is good at, life is a very densly grown jungle to Potschochter.
And he really does not know how to find his way to the other side of this jungle. All he can see at the very moment are big, trees blocking his way.
Imagine a miner digging a tunnel through a very hard ground only equipped with a bird's feather.
This is all Potschochter has. A feather from beneath a bird's wing. How can Potschochter dig a tunnel into the ground.
I doubt that the ground will vanish just by being tickled by a feather.
So Potschochter chose to take a step at a time, in his own pace. Even if it does not match the path given by society and college.
But Potschochter does not learn for a college degree. No, he wants to learn to gather knowledge and that is all Potschochter is driven by.

Maybe Potschochter is this kind of person who acquires knowledge just for the case of gathering it, but never being able to use it properly.
Or even not knowing when and in which cases this knowledge could be applied.
The only thing in life that comes naturally to Potschochter is writing. Writing his fingertipps off.
Writing is a profound source of joy to Potschochter. Writing as a way to strenghten Potschochter's so called resellience.

As a rule Potschochter's writing is accompanied by listeing to songs of Casting Crowns or Zach Willimas.
These songs are able to uplift Potschochter a little, just enough to make it through the day.
Today is gonny be a long day, thank heaven's there are two hours free time inbetween.
So Potschochter get's the possibility to try to learn some figures by heart.
During the education of becoming a ragiographer figures always have been Potschochter's strongest enemies.

Even if Potschochter would fail every upcoming test, I am sure that Potschochter's heart will continue to beat and the sun would not vanish in an instant.

So as, Zach Willliams uses to song "FEAR IS A LIAR!!!!"

So stay blessd everyone reading this.

Potschochter's vessel