Hi folks
It has been quite a long time since Potschochter shared some of his experiences.
Well Potschochter has the privilege to try to work as an assistant in a non profit organisation, where he got hired for 20h per week.
Well it has been quite a challenging time for him.
Due to the fact that Potschochter has a hubby who he does not want to turn to talking about his challenges, Potschochter is forced to share with the air.
Since Potschochter loves to write, he always chooses to express himself by typing.
People who know Potschochter consider him to be awkward and shy. Yes, indeed, Potschochter is shy and hopelessly awkward.
Though Potschochter wants to share a story of God's interference in Potschochter's life.
It has been nearly a week ago when Potschochter had lost the key he needed to unlock his working place.
Potschochter prayed so sincerely that God would help him finding the key again.
He had lost this key during a weekend. So Potschochter has spent a few days reconstructing the pathes he had taken on this special weekend.
He informed everyone along his pathes that he has lost a key and if it would be found, Potschochter has left his number just to get called.
Nothing happened.
On the third day after Potschochter has started missing this key, he ran his usual errands at Lidl.
Potschochter had no hope left, that the key would emerge again, but he decided to ask anyway.
And then the miracle happened.
Potschochter had randomly picked the cashdesk where the key has been placed just in case anybody would ask for it.
And this special moment, the heavens opened up to Potschochter and his heart made a big jump with glee.
His so strongly missed key got reunited with Potschochter.
So Potschochter is quite sure that this has been an act of God. God surely wanted to cheer up dear old Potschochter.
Potschochter really has to learn how to cope with his feelings of being out of place.
Though everyone is kind to him, deep down in his very soul Potschochter feels that there is something wrong with this situation.
There is no day passing without Potschochter feeling that he has to quit this job, due to his feelings of incompetence.
Potschochter has no one he can turn to and talk about those feelings.
He does not want to talk about this topic with his hubby, for his hubby is emotionally stressed as well and Potschochter does not want to bother him.
If Potschochter would quit he would be no proper role model for his daughters.
Potschochter has to learn to be grateful for this opportunity. But Potschochter does not want to be the reason for this organisation to spend too much money due to his
personally felt incompetence.
Potschochter knows defenitely well that he has to believe in himself. Potschochter has to learn to count the blessings in his life.
But there are days when he feels so stuck in a situation where he really wants to run away from.
Potschochter has to learn to avoid overthinking and to accept things that he cannot change.
His boss once told him that he does not have to be perfect to be successful in life. But this is so tough for Potschochter to apply to his life.
He wants to satisfy everyone's needs. But he can't and that is what Potschochter suffers from deep inside.
Potschochter has to learn how to invite ease into his life. Why can't the ground open up and have Potschochter for lunch?
Getting up in the morning is a sheer fight to Potschochter.
Is there no one to tell Potschochter what to do?
---UPDATE of today----
Potschochter does not know why, but his boss really seems to believe in him. They had a talk on the phone today. His boss who considers himself to posses a quite impatient personality somehow managed that Potschochter hesitately starts to believe what his boss for whatever reason has told him. He told him that he is sure that Potschochter is able and told him that it could be useful to Potschochter to go an write down every day what he has done each day on a regular basis. Potschochter would realize that it would be something.
Maybe Potschochter could give it a try.
A part in Potschochter firmly believes that GOD maybe used Potschochter`s boss for this period of time on the phone. This has been a virtual hand of help being stretched out to Potschochter to gratefully grab it and hopefully learn from it.
This is such an amazing fact. In the coming church services Potschochter is going to attend, there will be the topic of "spiritual growth". Maybe God planned this topic just to accompany
Potschochter during his season of change.
Maybe Potschochter's boss has picked Potschochter as his personal project, where he can share his knowledge. Potschochter has to admit that he is afraid of this responsibility that he gradually
will be thrown into. Well responsibility is the next chapter in Potschochter's Bible Studies.
Potschochter knows deep down in his soul that his future entirely lies in the palm of God's hands. Nobody ever said that living with GOD would be easy, but Potschochter knows that GOD defenitely is worth the choice.
Nina Dulleck once said, that courage is nothing more than fear who has prayed its way through in all.
There is a verse in John 16,33 saying
"... in the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world."
So take care
everyone out there
Potschochter's vessel
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